Well, the gods were listening after all and what I thought might happen, hoped might happen, didnt: not for me anyway but congrats to Adi and the others for whom it did. I just wanted some kind of recognition. Is that too much to ask?
The way I feel............ Ive tried to explain to the few who listen........but they havent really heard..........they havent "felt", they havent "touched" my soul and felt what Im feeling. Whilst I am there for everyone, it seems, they seem to see me as being this strong fellow who will just buck up very soon cos he always does........but sometimes the dark empty hole is just too deep and a helping hand is required. I look but I dont see that helping hand. Maybe its there but its just too dark to see it, either way the effect is the same.
Having this male fence holding in the emotions is not good, but I dont know how to let go, cry it out, and then move on. Instead it gnaws away from the inside and threatens to destroy any good things left within.
But I dont want to just use this blog as a rambling, whinging, self-pitying vehicle (even though its probably safe to say that nobody else is reading this, therefore Im talking to myself so thats o.k.) but its good to get things off ones chest isnt it? They say its good to talk.
Knock once for yes, and twice for no.
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment